Friday, July 31, 2009

Welcome New Follower!!!

Let's all welcome Sharon to our close-knit family of "friends and far-off neighboors" please and thank you!

Let's hope she's here for my hinted at but never explicitly stated semi-interactive review/commentary/freak-out thingy for Personal Effects: Dark Art by J.C. Hutchins. That starts Monday, and it should be the most intense thing I've done here, INCLUDING my rants against hippies and Republicans..

...combined!

Sharon dear? Like all of the folks who follow my blog, I want you to know that I love you just like a sibling, like you were my own sister. Yeah, that's the level of love you get. Any questions? :)

Went to the grocery store!!

You guys know I love to cook, which means I have to go grocery shopping. My wife trusted me with a budget of $400 to go buy enough food to last us two weeks, and aiming towards a more low-carb menu.

Yes, we're still having tacos. Can't get away from the tacos!

Anyways, cool beans. I bought two weeks worth of meat for dinners, plus some stuff to make lunchs and snacks. Lots of fresh and frozen vegetables, interesting sauces, all that sort of thing. Then, just for shits and grins...

THREE POUNDS OF SNOW CRAB CLUSTERS!!!

I don't even really know why, but I've been obsessed with crab legs and such. I almost ordered them last weekend, but reason and not wanting to ruin a new shirt won the day. But at home, in an old work shirt? I'm going to have a messy, butter-dripping feast! Yay for me!

Also, I'm going to try to cut back on the beer pretty significantly... one 6-pack of low-carb beer per week, give or take. Ugh. I know it is good for me, but I LOVE beer. LOVE. LOVE.

But I love my wife and my life more, and if I don't get into better shape in a hurry I'm likely to lose both.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Down Days, and Grocery Shopping

Wife is feeling a little better, I'm feeling a little better... with on and off anxiety giving me issues. I'm feeling this general "itch" in the back of my head bugging the shit out of me, like someone's sneaking up on me with a list of chores.

We're also completely out of food. It is sort of awesome, because that means we get to fill the fridge again. It also sucks, because it costs money. Spending money sucks, but I have a plan for some good foods. I'm going to have to branch out a bit so that we don't get too bored. We'll always eat tacos, because it is cheap and easy and my wife likes them too much. Maybe chicken pot pie again? Less Hamburger Helper, that's for damned sure!

14 dinners at $10 a meal is $140... I'm not sure how to get much lower than that unless we stop eating either meat OR vegetables. I won't miss veggies that much.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Down days, and laptop shopping...

My wife and I are both having something of a bad week. Part of it is the fact that we had family visit, part of it is that I'm feeling stressed about going back to school again, some of it is waiting for my laptop to explode...

Speaking of which, shopping for a laptop is HARD. There are so many models with so many mix-and-match features, it is hard to tell what to buy. I want a bigger monitor, but at the same time I'd have to carry that bigger computer around. I want something relatively cheap, but my man's heart cries out for more power and speed. Mostly, I want something that is easy on the eyes, works pretty well, and under $650.

There are some good deals online, but in the end I'll probably get one from Best Buy or another big-box store. I always hope for the best and prepare for the worst. So, I would like to believe that the computer will work, but if it doesn't it is a lot easier to drive back to the store and just get another one.

Also, I want a fancy-colored chassis. That just is NOT going to happen. Depending on what brand I get, I might find a neat looking skin for it. That would be double-groovy with a side of fries.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Summertime Blues

School is out, summer vacation has lost its novelty, there's still over a month until school starts, so what's a guy to do?

  • Catch up on missed TV shows: This summer, I've watched all the DVDs of the recent Doctor Who revivial, and we're working though the spin-off Torchwood.
  • Video games: I'm powering though Call of Duty 4, trying to max out my stats on the multiplayer before the new game comes out this fall.
  • New taste sensations: I've made my own Gyro meat, tried my hand at cooking with wine, and figured out how to make Lexington-style BBQ sauce from scratch.
  • Books: Well, not much reading, but I've listened to a few dozen audiobooks from folks like Scott Sigler and J.C. Hutchins, and I've just started on Hutchins' new book Personal Effects: Dark Art... it is a fucking humdinger of a read so far, and I've barely scratched the surface of the "transmedia out of book experience" that goes along with the story.
  • Playing with computers: I've installed an evaluation copy of Windows 7 on two of our computers, and I'm shopping for a new laptop since my old one is about to die.
What have you done with your summer?

Monday, July 27, 2009

Tired...

I'm just worn down, folks. A week of stressing about my in-laws, followed by a 4-day visit, and I'm barely able to keep my eyes open. I need a nap, and a nap, and then a couple of more naps.

I'm going to recharge the batteries, and tomorrow I'm going to be back at 100% and it will be super-groovy once more.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Bloody Hell!

So, as you guys know, I've been meaning to get started reading Personal Effects: Dark Art, the multimedia reading experience written by J.C. Hutchins. As part of the multimedia aspect, there is a FREE podcasted prequel novella to introduce the characters and settings, called Sword of Blood. I figured I would listen to that first, then try to solve all the mysteries of the actual written book. I listened to the first five chapters or so, got really involved in it...

... and then disaster struck. The second half of the podcast novella isn't up yet!!!

How can this be? Well, how it can be is that J.C. Hutchins has been scrambling to get the book out and promoted, and while he wanted to give the fans some free audio fiction, he ran out of time. He hasn't actually written the whole prequel yet! So, I kind of want to go ahead and get started on the book, but I 'm halfway through the prequel, and I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!

Ah, well... there's beer, so all is well.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

OMG DINNER!!!!!

In-laws are here, which means we get at least one fancy meal out. This time, it was at the Chart House on the river in Daytona Beach.



I started with a Scotch on the rocks as an appetizer. They have a salad bar... with FUCKING CAVIAR ON IT!!! I had me some of that, damn right! The basket of bread had a variety of different fresh-baked goodies in it. I ordered the bronzed grouper, which came dusted in spicy seasonings, and covered in lump crab in a mild cream sauce. Broccoli and rice on the side.

It was AWESOME! Another Scotch with dinner, and then an "Aspen coffee" for dessert... I don't know what was in it, but it was stronger than the Scotch.

Sure, ok... the meal for four people, including drinks, dessert, and tip was right at $300. It was the best meal I've had in probably 10-12 years, and it was worth it. Of course, I'm paying for it now by helping my father-in-law set up his new laptop, but that's cool too.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

The In-Laws Have Landed!

Oh boy...

They already want me to go with them to the beach for the whole day... NO! I hates the beach! I hate sand, and sun, and fun, and all that happy crappy.

My wife is working tomorrow, so she gets to dodge the worst of it. Not me. I'm stuck entertaining them all day tomorrow. UGH!

On the plus side, they're taking us to fancy restaurants this weekend. That's... almost worth it.

Back, 3 hours later... the power is back on, after a nasty rainstorm. Dinner was crappy, service was too... something bad happened to our "regular" place and we won't be going back!

One more day to go!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Yeah... some people, you just can't make happy

Desk is assembled, room is straight, lawn is mowed, in-laws will be here tomorrow.

My in-laws are a giant pain in the ass. They are very critical of a lot of our lifestyle. Hell, part of the reason I think we're broke now is because we've spent thousands of dollars in home decor and improvement stuff to make them less likely to bitch at us. They aren't bad people, but they are very stuff-conscious. They see something "wrong" in our house, or our housekeeping, and feel obligated to tell us about it.

Last night, it came to something of a head. My wife and I were both stressed, she wanted to calm me down but also wanted me to do more work. I snapped, finally... and at the end of it, we both decided that we're done playing this game. We're done spending money to satisfy them, when it won't work anyway. We're done killing ourselves every time they come into town. We're REALLY done getting so stressed out that we snap at each other every time they decide to use our home as a hotel room.

They'll be here tomorrow. They can appreciate the hospitality, and mind their business about the fact that there are places on the wall that need repainting, and that the cat has scratched up the carpets pretty bad. If they don't like it, they can each have a huge slice of STFU pie, hit the bricks, and stay at the local motel.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

New Desk Update!

I got the desk. I even got it put together. I haven't got everything hooked up yet, let alone moved on to organizing the rest of the room. Lots of stuff to do!

I got up this morning at 7:30, and started organizing cables and stuff. About 10:30, I decided to run to the store, and buy some stuff for the house like replacement vertical blind slats, and cable ties for the computer stuff. When I got home, the desk was here in its box, propped against the front door.

At this point, I want to once again say that the Ryobi cordless tool set I bought was the smartest $140 I ever spent. I switched back and forth between the Phillips head and Allen bits, and probably cut the desk assembly time in half. I can't imagine trying to screw in all those bolts with a screwdriver and the little Allen wrench they included with the desk. Nasty stuff!

Anyhoo, I spent a few hours assembling, a few hours hooking up computer components in a preliminary manner, and hanging up my cork board. I also bolted down my in-boxes, on account of not wanting the cats to hop in them, and sling them onto the floor when they hop out of them. I'm taking a 'break' while I cook dinner and blog, and later this evening I'll be back in there. I've got my entire guitar rig to assemble, plus I've got to tie up all of the cables on the back of the desk, so that it looks as neat as humanly possible.

My in-laws coming on Thursday has only a little bit to do with this. Mostly, I need my space to be straightened out and organized. My thinking is only as organized as my environment, and trying to work in a mess makes me incapable of producing anything but crap. Plus, I need to room to read and interact with Personal Effects: Dark Art which should be on everyone's must-buy list... and I mean NOW!

Monday, July 20, 2009

Big day tomorrow!

I get my new desk! Nothing fancy, not my dream desk or anything, but at least it will be an actual, real desk. I'm considering gluing and screwing all of my desktop accessory stuff straight to the desk: speakers, inbox, organizer, those sorts of things. In any case, after a three month stretch with no office to speak of, I'm finally going to have my shit together. Yay!

Also, I'm about to start reading the coolest book EVER. It is so cool, I am going to be blogging about it for most of the rest of the month, or until I finish reading it. It could take awhile...

Anyhoo, it is called Personal Effects: Dark Art, by J.C. Hutchins and Jordan Weisman, and it is part novel, part alternate-reality game. I need my office set up before I start reading it, so I can organize clues and stuff.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Sunday Stealing: The Heretic Meme

Cheers to all us thieves!

Sunday Stealing: The Heretic Meme

1. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you lay in a bed with? My wife, of course!

2. Where was the last place you went out to eat? Panda Express.

3. What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed? I had a couple too many Shock Tops last night... much less than I normally drink, so why do I have a hangover?

4. Which do you prefer - eyes or lips? Eyes.

5. Medicine, fine arts, or law? MATH!

6. Best kind of pizza? Thin crust with lots of meats, and extra bacon.

7. What is in store for your future? More college, even more college, then back to work for the first time in years.

8. Who was the last band you saw live?Joe Satriani... it was motherfucking awesome!

9. Do you take care of your friends while they are sick? Nope.

10. How many songs are on your iPod? Maybe 2 dozen? I have mostly podcasts and audiobooks on my iPod.

11. Where is the last place you drove to? The store to get beers... worst mistake I made yesterday.

12. Where did your last kiss take place? Over there... my wife leaving for work.

13. What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night? Wishing I could sleep and not being able to.

14. Are you a quitter? Yep.

15. Who was the last person you had in your house? That I had what? Had for dinner? OK, you caught me, we ate the mailman...

15. What do you think about people who party a lot? Not much either way. As long as it doesn't have negative consequences, party all you want!

16. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Depends on who is asking.

17. What was the last CD you purchased? Joe Satriani's last one, Professor Satchafunkilus and the Musterion of Rock.

18. What are two bands or singers that you will always love? Iron Maiden and Pink Floyd

19. Which of the seven deadly sins are you guilty of? All? Lots? More, please? I don't buy into the whole "sin" bit though.

20. How is your last ex doing? Don't know, don't care, life is too short to look backwards.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Mrs. Chili has questions!

And I have answers!! I've been posting about philosophical stuff, and since I'm not exactly mainstream, there usually ARE questions. Here's the post that inspired the questions.

Question:

I think the only problem with this is how do we figure out how to behave (think, feel, whatever) about things that don't have any concrete means of assessment? Why do you love your wife, for example, or how do we define respect?

Here's my answer: There are two answers, or possibly two components to the best answer I can give. I'm not happy with the "think, feel, whatever" comment, because "thinking" and "feeling" are two different things, and "whatever" sounds like you're being strongly dismissive of the differences. Nevertheless, I'll do my best to answer, although I doubt you'll be satisfied with the answers I have.

The first answer or part of one is this: There are certainly concrete means to assess the outcomes of our behavior, because our behavior has real-world consequences. Again, there's no claim of absolute knowledge involved, but we can all recognise the difference between the worst outcome to our actions, and something better than the worst. All of that carries a level of subjectivity, of course... but once a subjective standard is chosen, there are ways to measure how close you get to that standard. Even something as simple, subjective, and silly as "what is your favorite flavor of Jell-O" can be determined and measured on a scale of least to most prefered flavors. I know that I love my wife the same way... it is all internal and subjective, but there it is. If you are like me, you want to maximize personal happiness, and the happiness of people you care about, while causing as little harm to other people as possible. How do we get there?

That's the second part: we are evolved life forms, the product of a billion years of reproduction and selection that has led to the present moment. Every step of the way, evolution involves the selection of traits that lead to further reproduction. There's no mind involved in this selection: if you get killed in the course of the day, that's what I'm refering to as being "selected against." On the whole, it means that certain traits make it more likely that you will have offspring, and they will be likely to carry those traits that helped you survive. Humans are social creatures, which means that the evolutionary path involves empathy, teamwork, long-term mating, etc. The qualities that enable cooperation are the ones that help social creatures survive. Why not take advantage, and cheat as often as you can? Cheating hurts the group, and hurting the group makes survivial of the individuals in the group less likely. Stronger groups have a better chance of survival and reproduction than groups weakened by greed and selfishness. Cultural training tends to reinforce this inbred responses.

We're bred by nature to love one another, to feel connections to one another, and to behave in ways that support those feelings, which support the survival of our group. Some people are made uncomfortable by the idea that our emotions are in large part the result of genetic programming over which we have no control. I'm not too worried about it. There was a certain amount of pre-wired stuff in my brain that made it possible for my ears to hear, my eyes to see, and there's a whole autonomous nervous system that does stuff without any input from me at all. I have no reason to see emotional responses as any different. I'm born with the propensity for love, loyalty, empathy, compassion; my culture and upbringing reinforce it.

Maybe not satisfying, but its all I have... not that I have to think about it, on account of it is part of my hard-wired brain function. :)

Friday, July 17, 2009

PHILOSOPHY, BEING "ARROGANT," AND BEING "WRONG FOR THE RIGHT REASONS" PART III

Part I and Part II

On being wrong for the right reasons:

None of us have access to absolute knowledge. So, what CAN we base our viewpoints on? Some people believe that you can use faith and emotion to know things. I say you need evidence. Some folks counter that everything is subjective, which is a waste of time because if you reject objective reality then no one can say anything about anything. Further, no one lives that way: we live as though the world is more or less the way it appears, and follows rules that we can understand. We don't take precautions against gravity failing, we don't assume medicines will magically transform into poison, and we don't expect corpses to rise from their graves with a hunger for human flesh... we might HOPE, but we don't expect. :)

So, we don't assume absolute knowledge, but we rely on conditional knowledge in order to live our lives. If we can't know anything absolutely, why can't people just make stuff up and the rest of us take it seriously? After all, all those scientists and experts and smart people could be wrong, and religious people, schizophrenics, morons, Republicans, and Brittney Spears could all be right!

Well, sure, they could be right. How would they figure it out, what way could they check? How could they tell, unless they fall back on the same things that the experts use? And, when those smart science-types get something wrong, they rely on other science types to correct them... no one has ever exposed something that science got wrong by praying about it or asking "the universe" to reveal the right answer.

Sometimes science gets things wrong, but even then it is generally "wrong for the right reasons." That is, sometimes when you apply the best methods you can still sometimes get an incorrect answer. For instance, the evidence could be incomplete, someone could be lying, or some of the machinery might be broken. If you make a bad decision because someone you trust tells you something that isn't true, you weren't stupid for doing so, and if you get better at picking who you trust you'll make better decisions in the future.

Also, when you are "wrong for the right reasons" your answers tend to be closer to a correct ballpark than if you are just "trusting your gut" or praying about it. We're not sure how old the universe is, but we can be pretty sure that the people who claim it is a few thousand years old, based on the Bible? Those people are fucking stupid, and probably need an adult guardian to make sure they don't wet themselves or decide to home school their children to be as stupid as they are. I can't give you an answer based on absolute knowledge, but we can feel pretty safe in saying the universe is somewhere in the neighborhood of 15 billion years old. Religious fundamentalists feel they can give you an absolute answer, but it is absolutely wrong.

Let's say there's a jar that is a foot high, a foot wide, and is filled with jellybeans. Without opening it, how do you figure out how many jellybeans are in it? Do you consult a psychic, or a Magic 8-Ball? Do you consult with holy writings (hypothetically, jellybeans could be part of a religion...)? Do you throw a dart at a board covered with numbers, and ask "the universe" to guide you to the right answer? Or, do you pull out your calculator, figure out an approximate volume for the jar and the beans, and use that to come up with a "pretty close? answer? Do you buy 20-30 identical jars, fill them with jellybeans, count them up and take an average to come up with a pretty good estimate? Do you weigh an empty jar, a jellybean, and the full jar, and use those weight figures to calculate the number of jellybeans within a pretty close margin of error.

Maybe I'll be off by a few, but I'm sure I'll get pretty close. On the other hand, someone reading chicken guts might guess the number exactly. He's right, but not for any good reason. I'm wrong, but I was on the right track. Why is my way superior? Because while in every "objects in a jar" scenario someone is likely to guess the right answer exactly, it will always be a DIFFERENT person. The person who gets the "jellybeans in a jar" exactly right, will probably get the "golf balls in a swimming pool" wrong by a really wide margin. I may never get the exact answer, but I'll always be very close to the right answer no matter what objects we're dealing with. My methods are sound, so my outcomes are consistently better than by other less sound methods.

Just one other thing, and then I swear I'm done. I talked about the age of the universe before. I've heard people say "you don't know the exact answer, and science is always changing its answer, so I'll stick with the Bible answer that never changes. You can't prove me wrong, unless you can give me an exact answer" Here's the thing: I don't have to know a perfect answer in order to identify a whole universe of wrong answers. In the jellybean example, there are probably somewhere between a couple of hundred and a couple of thousand jellybeans in the jar, based on nothing more than a random guesstimate as I'm typing this. If you told me the exact number was 917, I couldn't say you were wrong without counting every jellybean.

On the other hand, I can tell you with almost absolute certainty that you are wrong if you guess that there are 17 jellybeans, or if you guess 17,498,761 jellybeans. I don't off the top of my head know what 182 times 4237 is, but I know that the answer isn't 210 or 210,000,000,000,000,000.3 either. I don't have to have attended the creation of the universe to have very good reasons to assume that it is older than 6,000 years... like the fact that there are plants older than that.

To wrap his all up: science and rational thinking are the only things that have contributed much of ANYTHING to our knowledge of the world we live in. No other method has shown itself to be anywhere nearly as consistent and effective. It is not arrogant to depend on a method that works, or to point out how very badly other methods fail. And, finally, I'd rather be wrong occasionally while using the best methods possible, rather than to be wrong all the time while being smugly certain that I'm right.

Ok, I'm done. Back to lighter stuff tomorrow.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

It must be nice...

... to have lots of people read and comment on your blog. I have no idea what that feels like. I think 4-5 people read my fucking blog, including my wife.

Why the hell do I even bother?

PHILOSOPHY, BEING "ARROGANT," AND BEING "WRONG FOR THE RIGHT REASONS" PART II

Read Part I HERE

No, seriously, I'll wait. Go to it!

Ok, picking up where I left off, many religious people claim that they know how to be moral from their religion, or their spirituality, or messages from the universe, or some sort of literal Magic 8-Ball. I disagree, and explained why I believe that they really use reason and rational thought to make ethical decisions... but it is a symptom of a much, MUCH bigger problem, that goes beyond religion.

People believe that believing and feeling and having faith are all "ways of knowing" that rival and even surpass logic and evidence and experimentation. The idea seems to be based on a combination of several factors, all of which certainly appear to make some sort of superficial sense but are based more on ego and illogic. I'm going to break it down in not too much detail:
  • There is a "democratic" view of knowledge that places all perspectives on equal footing: "You have your opinion, and I have mine."
  • That view is bolstered by the mistaken notion that everything is ultimately opinion, there are no real facts, and everything is subjective.
  • Because everything is ultimately subjective, having a belief about a claim based on feelings or religious faith is just as valid as conducting experiments and gathering evidence, because ultimately you've got to "take it on faith" that the evidence is valid.
  • There's a contradiction in that people claim that there's no real way to prove them wrong, therefore their views should be taken seriously. However, once you assert that there's no way to know what's most likely to be true or not, you also surrender the ability to make any claims at all. You are attacking the basis of all REAL knowledge, in order to squeeze in your feelings and faith as a viable alternative.
What's interesting is that these folks will often turn around and claim that scientists, doctors and other people who rely on evidence and logic are being "arrogant" for rejecting the viewpoints of non-experts, and denying the validity of faith-based views that contradict science. They will say that "arrogant" atheists just don't understand religion because they need to look at religion with their "hearts" instead of with their eyes. There are all sorts of anti-science folks who reject global warming, evolution, basic science in general. There are conspiracy theorists who claim that modern medicine is a giant scam, that 9/11 was a government plot, and so on. In all of these situations, what these people are really saying is "I reject everything you say, because I BELIEVE in my ideas and therefore everything that contradicts my beliefs is wrong or a lie BY DEFINITION."

They have this view because they have convinced themselves to go with their feelings instead of using their brains. When that's pointed out to them, that's when the accusations of "arrogance" really start to fly. Here's the question: if I am arrogant for admitting that I don't know everything and only the best evidence and most reliable experts can help me figure things out, then how much more arrogant must someone be to claim that they know more than those experts and their feelings and instincts are more reliable than any evidence? I don't claim any absolute knowledge, but religious people do. When I don't know the answer to something I don't make one up and claim that everyone who disagrees with me is part of a conspiracy to suppress a "truth" that I can't back up with evidence. I'm not the arrogant one, I'm the irritated and frustrated person who has a hard time dealing politely with people who ARE arrogant... and strongly religious folks are at the top of the list.

I'm pretty close to done here... and I want to thank anyone who bothered to read this far. Tomorrow I'll post pictures of boobs and butts, or recipes or something, and wrap it all up on Friday.


Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Laptop update!

The monitor is making strange rightward shifts, blinking on and off, making the "device connected/disconnected" sound every time I open or close it, plus random other times. The USB ports are popping up regular alerts at me, as though they are disappearing and then reappearing on the Device Manager's radar. I reinstalled Windows, updated all of the drivers, and it is just as bad.

Looks like I'm shopping for a new computer. No philosophy lesson tonight.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Philosophy, Being "Arrogant," and Being "Wrong for the Right Reasons" Part I

There's a common thread that goes through all of my more "ranting" posts, but I rarely take the time to talk about how I see the world and how that view drives those rants. After yesterday's post, I thought I should take a deep breath and talk about the underlying issues and foundational thoughts behind my "philosophy."(I'm not sure that I like that word, but it will work middling well.)

I think most people want to consider themselves to be intelligent and decent human beings, by whatever subjective definition they embrace... and I'm actually no exception. The difference between me and what I see from some other people is the way that people like me go about it(if there IS a difference...). Most people base their behavior and attitudes on religious beliefs and superstition-based "morality,"(or at least say that they do, and we will BE COMING BACK TO THIS POINT LATER, HINT HINT!). They also tend to fall into the idea of thinking positive things, and avoiding thinking negative things. There's all sorts of squishy emotional stuff where you turn the other cheek, and big hugs all around... and I don't think you get as far as you think you do towards being the person you want to be. Or maybe that's just as far as you want to go?

Me? I try to believe as many TRUE things as possible, and avoid believing as many FALSE things as possible. You have to use that knowledge to weigh ethical decisions. That's IT. I'm sure someone is thinking "cold rationality is a good way to do science, but it doesn't help you make ethical decisions." I know that doesn't sound very warm and fuzzy, and probably sounds cold and heartless when figuring how to deal with other people, but bear with me.

First, let's reject religion right off of the bat and get it out of the way. Religion doesn't help you one bit in being a good person, especially not the Judeo-Christian-Islamic religions. Anything based on the superstitions of Bronze Age sociopaths whose "holy book" outlines and justifies genocide, murder, rape, and slavery should be tossed in the trash and never considered again. And even today it is used to justify all sorts of nasty behavior, none of the supernatural parts are even true, but none of that is the fundamental problem with religion. Even if it were mostly sweetness and light, it would still be less than ideal, because "carrot and stick" and "absolute authority" aren't a proper basis for ethical behavior.

If you do things because you are told to do them, and don't do things because you are told not to, and place the decision in the hands of someone else, then you are letting THEM make the ethical decisions. Whether you are doing so because you want a reward and are trying to avoid punishment, or because you believe that your religious rules are delivered by an all-powerful being, you are in either case not living an ethical or moral life. At best, you are mostly amoral in a benign way and have an underdeveloped sense of responsibility and duty... because you have to figure those things out yourself and act on them, not abdicate that to imaginary beings or church elders. At worse... well, you get Nazi Germany. You get a nation of deeply angry religious people whose beliefs were manipulated to cause them to do great evil while believing they were doing great good.

("Spirituality" and other squishy non-authoritarian moral paths aren't much better, although they tend to be less prone to lead to genocide. They also seem to be not good for much of anything. There's a softness to it that seems to be conducive to passivity, and allowing other people to do harm to you and take advantage of you. There's also a sort of surrender of self-interest that I find distasteful and harmful to people, in that there's a great amount of "giving a crap about yourself" that you can do without becoming selfish or self-centered. If you don't take care of yourself, how can you possibly take care of anyone else, let alone have healthy and productive relationships? On the other hand, "spiritual" folks have such nebulous beliefs that one can hardly get a grip on them to criticize properly... is that a flaw, or a feature? In any case, we'll get back to this at the end as well.)
On the other hand, my morals are better than that. I don't do good things because there's some external reward for it, and I don't avoid criminal behavior because I'm afraid of eternal or even temporary punishment. I also don't accept a list of "moral absolutes" from some higher authority, and use that list as a "cheat sheet" instead of thinking about a situation and making moral decisions based on that situation. And someone shoot me if I ever automatically turn the other cheek when the appropriate response is a punch in the face, or choose "surrendering to the will of the universe" instead of striving to fix things! :)

Yeah, my morals are better than anything coming from religion and/or spirituality... and, believe it or not SO ARE YOURS! I don't believe that any decent person actually bases their morality on religion or spirituality, no matter how much they might say that they do. (This is the end part... I told you I'd get back to it!) I think everyone uses the same basic method of determining moral behavior, but have been culturally trained to give religion the credit for what they do, and also to place blame on their "imperfect nature" when they screw up. I don't think people actually believe that, but they think it is a good thing to believe so they steer themselves that way. Most people manage to be pretty moral, whatever they give credit to...

... But I think they can do better. That's where we'll pick up next time.

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I really should have crafted an outline for this... I think it is fairly coherent, and flows pretty well, but it does go on... and on and on and on! I was struggling to find something to post about, and didn't want to whine or rant. This is better, right?

Sunday, July 12, 2009

I thought this was nice... "nice"?!?!

There's a sort of fun "debate" going on between science-minded folks who want to give religious assholes a big old HUG and tell them that there's no problem with believing in talking snakes and using that belief in order to form your view of the world, and the mean old Atheists who call "bullshit" whenever someone tries to pretend that religion and reason are in any way compatible. The sad thing is that the first group, the "accommodationists," claim to want to encourage good science education by making it less threatening to laypersons, even if it means softening the facts so that they are acceptable to people who think the world is 6000 years old... and all that they are acheiving is allowing religious fundamentalists to steamroll them.

Here's a quote I found from Comrade PhysioProf (by way of Pharyngula):

There are two main views concerning the reason why Americans are so pathetically fucking delusional at the population level concerning the nature of objective reality, especially in relation to the history of the planet Earth.

One view is that the problem is that scientists and science teachers are no good at explaining science to laypeople and students, respectively. The other view is that the problem is that American society is grotesquely polluted with patently absurd wackaloon religious bullshit from top to bottom, stem to stern, and port to starboard.

If you buy in to the former, then you concern troll scientists and science educators and tell them that they are DOING IT WRONG. If you buy in to the latter, then you implacably debunk patently absurd wackaloon religious bullshit everywhere you see it.




Yeah! Just as importantly, Americans have this strange notion that they are entitled to an opinion on anything and everything, and that everyone's opinion is equal. It just isn't so. Some asshole politician denying global warming, based on some right-wing economists' amateur pseudo-research should carry ZERO weight in the discussion of climate and energy policy... but that asshole (James Inhofe) is sabotaging the goddamned world and gets plenty of support. Some silly cunt claims that the world is 6000 years old, and only Jesus knows when it would end, and therefore we shouldn't worry about pollution from radioactive materials... and she's an elected official who isn't immediately removed from office for being mentally defective!

That's what we're talking about here: mentally defective people, with something broken in their brain that makes them think that their stupid little beliefs outweigh mountains of evidence. What's worse is that they think that the fact that their mythology is old somehow gives it more validity... because surely some ignorant Hebrew sheep-fuckers knew more about the world 4000 years ago than we do now... that's why they had iPods and rarely died of simple infections or during childbirth. OH, WAIT, THEY FUCKING DIDN'T HAVE IPODS AND DIED OF OLD AGE BY 50 IF THE MEASLES OR GETTING KNOCKED UP DIDN'T KILL THEM FIRST!!

Now, back to the accommodationists. They think that all you have to do to sway the mentally defective is just be nicer to them, stop being so confrontational, and don't make a big deal when they take a steaming dump on centuries of hard work and evidence-gathering. When you are dealing with people who believe that you deserve eternal torment for not believing as they do, and consider that torture to be just and ethical, and FURTHER consider that to meet you half-way is to join you in that infinite suffering, what real accommodation can be made? The only thing that happens besides getting run over by the fundamentalists, is that you encourage that same "everyone's opinion is valid and should be respected" nonsense that is what we should be fighting in the first place.

Thus endeth the sermon.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Meatballs!!

I remember as a kid being a huge fan of spaghetti and meatballs. Or more accurately spaghetti and meatball, singular. We only got one meatball each, but it was a big one! I loved pasta, and there was always something special about the meatballs. A meatball is part bunless hamburger, part extra-flavorful meatloaf, sort of like a tender sausage, and when done right is a thing of beauty. I even liked the frozen ones that they would heat up in sauce and serve in school, even though they smelled just a bit like ripe farts.

As I've gotten older and started cooking, I've experimented with meatballs on and off over the years. I've tried making them with beef, pork, and a mixture of the two. I've screwed around with the meat-to-breadcrumb ratio, and sometimes added whole-grain bread soaked in milk instead of breadcrumbs. I've added onion, cheeses, chopped peppers, dried peppers, and just about any sort of sauce and seasoning you can imagine. I've simmered them in marinara, cream sauces, cheese sauces, and recently made a sweet cranberry chili sauce for my meatballs.

The only problem I've struggled with is getting the texture down. I had been making them very dense, bordering on tough and rubbery. Since being married, I have been forced to make them less dense so that I don't accidentally send my wife to the emergency room again. For a short while I had been making them very mealy and too soft, which wasn't exactly a solution either. The solution I found was to back off on the breadcrumbs a bit, and then mix the whole thing with a fork, rather than with my hands. The less I touch the meat, the better. They turn out firm but not rubbery, and stay pretty moist.

I'm off to cook... good times!

Robots are SCARY!!!



When the robots take over the world, don't blame me! I tried to warn you!!

Friday, July 10, 2009

Rant Time!!!

Wow... Blogger will post a non-post!

Anyhoo... I'm here to rant.

I'm tired. I'm tired of politics.

I'm sick of a loser like Sarah Palin being treated like a real force in politics, while others dare to treat Al Franken as some sort of clown.

I'm also tired of Sarah Palin being treated like a joke because she's a mother and a Christian and gives speeches that make her sound retarded, when she should be treated as a threat because she's a narcissistic fool with fundamentally un-American views. She and her husband have been directly linked to political groups that call for Alaska to seceed from America. Those groups are traitors, and so are the Palins. Stop making the easy joke about her, and get down to the meat of her retarded beliefs.

I'm sick of the fact that Bill Clinton was impeached for adultery, while the entire Republican party is buried in cheating husbands and wives, levels and levels deep. Clinton was a dick, but the entire Republican Party seems to be neck-deep in their own bullshit.

I'm tired of the media wasting their time on all this bullshit. Let GMA and The Today Show cover Michael Jackson and sex scandals. The "news" shows? They need to SCREAM AT THE TOP OF THEIR LUNGS that America spends double on health care compared to the rest of the free world, and gets the worst results. That should be the #1 HEADLINE EVERY SINGE DAY, and instead we never hear about it.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

The Hunt For a New Computer...GRRRR!

While my wife considers the cost and inconvenience of an in-depth drug regimen, I am saddled with the fear of (and potential personal jackassery involved) my laptop dying.

I bought this laptop like two years ago, but it turned out to be two years older than that... so I have a four year old laptop. I would have returned it I guess, except I had already exchanged my last one for this one, and I got the rebate on BOTH computers... like $450 worth of rebates, so I think it wound up costing me about $450 total. So, not a bad price, if it worked. It is super-buggy in a whole lot of ways. The display goes all wonky and blacks out occassionally. My network connection crashes every few hours, and I have to restart the system. The webcam has stopped working, and signals to me that it has stopped working every few minutes. The USB ports are breaking down. Overall, there are a bunch of problems and installing windows and updating the drivers doesn't seem to do anything.

Fixing a laptop if I have to buy hardware for it? Doesn't seem worth the money or effort. I'm also not going to pay someone a couple of hundred bucks to fix it, since that's what it would probably cost if they have to do the things that I can't and won't do here. I've done all the software stuff that can be done, AFAIK.

Granted, I also have a desktop computer... a fairly OK and decent one. The problem is that I use the desktop for music recording and effects processing, which means that it goes where my amp goes. I'm thinking about doing a weekly podcast related to a web forum I participate in, and I'll need to hook MORE stuff to the desktop. I am getting a maybe really big desk for it in a few weeks or months...

















On the other hand, my wife and I have gotten used to me having a laptop out on the kitchen table. It is nice that I don't have to be isolated from her while I'm doing casual Internet browsing-type activities. At some point, coming very soon in fact, I am going to be commuting to school. It will be almost necessary for me to be able to lug a computer around with me because I'm damn sure not driving 45 minutes home and the back for a class later in the day.

On the other, other hand... I don't really have any money to buy a new computer. I can spend some of my college loan refund on one($1665.12, woohoo!!), but if this computer is still working AT ALL I won't do it. I'm not going to replace this computer over inconvenience and annoyance. I'm not sure I would replace it immediately even if it dies completely.

On the other, other, other hand... $1665.12 left over!!! I could get a super-computer!!!

On the other, other, other, other hand... I need to save money for books in the spring, plus books and tuition for the summer sessions.

On the other, other, other, other, other hand... I get emails from Newegg.com. I can get a replacement for this computer for $400-450 that is at least as nice as this one, and with a warranty and not 4 years old! Like this one, for instance:





The lesson you should take from all this? If I get one more "other hand" I qualify as an OCTOPUS!!!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

More rain!!! WOOOO!!!!


Didn't get out to the dog park, looks like it is going to rain which means no walk tonight either.

If the power holds up, we'll be watching Street Fighter: The Legend of Chun-Li.

Chun-Li is a character from the classic Street Fighter II video game. Here's a video:


So then, they decide to make a movie... a MOVIE! I guess they weren't interested in picking someone with a similar physique... or even more traditionally Asian. Lazy effing casting if you ask me. So here's what we get:




Dirty, skinny, half-Dutch, no giant thighs or big boobs... and if she doesn't put on a cool Chinese dress and do an upside-down spinning kick in the movie I'm snapping the disk in half and Netflix can suck it.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Ginger at the Dog Park!!

We actually went during the day, and there was another dog there! Ginger made a new friend!

I was bored this afternoon. I figured, what the hell, let's go to the dog park. On the way over, it starts raining so I turn around and head home. Then it stops raining so hard so I turn around AGAIN and we go back. I got soaking wet getting from the car to the covered area with the picnic table. I let Ginger off the leash and she sort of sniffed around.

Then a guy with a dog showed up, and Ginger had her first ever experience with another dog outside and off her leash. She didn't really like it at first. Having a golden retriever puppy sniffing around her butt wasn''t what she had planned for the afternoon. She didn't freak out but she sort of walked away from him and towards me, trying to avoid the attention.

After a few minutes they kind of ignored each other... and then a few minutes later they were chasing around the dog park like old friends. It made me pretty glad to see her runnning and chasing and playing with another dog, and not cooped up in the house all day. We're going to try to go again at least one more day this week... if I can get up early enough. It gets hot fast most days here!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Sunday Stealing: The "I've Come to Realize" Meme



Sunday Stealing: The "I've Come to Realize" Meme

1. I’ve come to realize that my chest-size. . . is why I get all the chicks.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job. . . is being cool, so you don't have to.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving. . . I'm putting my life in the hands of a bunch of angry idiots.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need. . . less than I'm used to feeling like I need? I'm not as obsessed with getting new stuff.

5. I’ve come that realize that I have lost. . . none of my desire to be a super hero.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when. . . other people try to ruin my day.

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk. . . I'm a little bit happier, but not much.

8. I’ve come to realize that money... isn't everything. But it helps!!

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people. . . shouldn't be allowed to live.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always. . . be smarter than you.

11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s). . . are who they are, and I don't need the one who is an asshole to be in my life ever again.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom… means well, but it is filtered through all sorts of issues she has.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone. . . is too big.

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning. . . I can drink a hell of a lot of beer without getting a hangover.

15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep. . . that I drank a hell of a lot of beer!

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking. . . that the people who put "what you are thinking" things in memes? Fucking morons who need to be slapped around with a shit-dipped sea bass.

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad. . . has the worst sleeping habits of anyone alive.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook. . . it means the world has ended. I don't mess with that shit.

19. I’ve come to realize that today. . . is just another day.

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight. . . is just another night.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow. . . is Monday?

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to. . . adopt a stray ring tailed lemur.

23. I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to repost this is. . . yo mama.

24. I’ve come to realize that life. . . is your oyster. Really, that's all it is. And everything happens for a reason. And other silly platitudes.

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend. . . is probably the last time I should drink for at least a little while.

26. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset. . . is the same music I listen to when I'm in any other mood.

27. I’ve come to realize that my friends. . .

28. I’ve come to realize that this year. . . I'm turning 35.

29. I’ve come to realize that me exes. . . are better off exes.

30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should. . . finish this and take a nap.

31. I’ve come to realize that I love. . . ring tailed lemurs a little TOO much.

32. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand. . . why people can't all be cool like me.

33. I’ve come to realize my past. . . doesn't matter.

34. I’ve come to realize that parties. . . aren't my thing.

35. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified. . . of being asked "what are you thinking right now?" in another of these memes!!

36. I’ve come to realize that my life. . . is not so bad after all.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Yay America

Fourth of July, and I'm celebrating by staging an assault on the King...


... King of Beers, that is! Me and Budweiser are having a competition, and I've got a feeling that the brews are going to win. Win BIG.

Maybe I should go ahead and do the Sunday Stealing now? I may not be capable tomorrow!

Friday, July 3, 2009

Sweet Satan, Mowing is HARD!

I decided to do something nice for me and my wife, so I mowed the lawn. Normally, WE mow the lawn, Sunday nights... because we can't put it off any longer than that. Instead of dreading it all weekend, I figured I could do it today and save us both the aggravation later. Unfortunately, I came up with the idea this morning, and my wife gets home from work at 4 in the afternoon.

So, there I was, mowing the lawn at NOON in JULY in FLORIDA!! It was so effing hot that when I took at 10 minute break to cool off, the mower decided to take a 45 minute break, and refused to start. I mowed the front yard, and part of the sides, took a break, mowed half of the back yard... and realized that the amount of lawn left was about the same square footage as the house. That's after I mowed an hour, and had a break.

I want a handgun, and a new amplifier, and podcasting gear, and all sorts of other cool shit and groovy accoutrements...

I NEED a rider mower!!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Planning a vacation... way too early!

My wife and I haven't been on a real honest-to-Satan vacation in two whole years. Between my unemployment, school, and the fact that we have way too many pets and no one to watch them... we've been stuck at home. Next spring or summer we're going to try to put together a real vacation... I'm wanting to go to Vegas, but we'll probably settle for Busch Gardens in Tampa.

There's a pet boarding place the next town over that can keep her for a few days when we leave town. I hope she appreciates what we're willing to do for her. $32 a day isn't that much, but it isn't nothing either. "Nothing" is what the cats get. They can fend for themselves!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Politics, Adultery, and Respect

Governor Mark Sanford of South Carolina has been in the news a bit lately. Apparently, after a week of legislative setbacks, Gov. Sanford decided to take a few days off. Understandable, except that no one knew exactly where the fuck he went. It turns out he was in Argentina, not Appalachia. He's got a girlfriend there. His wife knows, and kicked him out a few weeks before he pulled his disappearing act. In the meanwhile, no one was in charge in S.C. Sanford swiped a government vehicle(possibly an armed state police SUV) and left without passing command over to the Lt. Governor. He may have also used his position to arrange taxpayer-funded visits to his mistress... with whom he may have arranged excessively-favorable trade deals.

Politically, this is fucking bullshit. The governor of an eastern seaboard state with military bases cannot simply "go walkabout" whenever he feels like. He can disappear with a government vehicle, to see a girlfriend with whom he has met on the government's dime? He doesn't need to inform his security detail, or put someone in charge while he's gone? If he was on vacation to suck down crawdads in Louisiana, or surf in California, he still needs to leave in an orderly fashion, with a security detail. He's slacked off on his duties, period.

Sanford also cheated on his wife, an issue separate from his political life. He's got a wife and FOUR kids, and he just bailed on them. He missed Father's Day with his kids. He put his wife in the position of lying for him, while she knew he was out cheating on her. That's the nastiest sort of betrayal... he cheated on his wife IN PUBLIC, after spending years and lots of her money getting himself into the public eye. That's just disgusting in all kinds of ways.

Respect? I could respect Sanford if he made a GODDAMNED CHOICE!! He's been going out and saying that he loves both women, that his mistress is his soulmate, and he is going to try to make himself love his wife. He's saying he should keep being governor even after all of this, as though he can pretend this isn't happening and that he hasn't made his personal life a political issue. Here's a crazy idea: Mark Sanford, you should divorce your wife who you obviously don't care about, resign from office, and move to Argentina to be with your soulmate. If you did that, I would have some small respect for you... because even though you fucked up, in the end you followed your heart. Anything else strikes me as "have your cake and eat it to" CYA opportunism. If you threw away your life over the love of a woman, go be with you. If you threw it away for lust for some strange, you should suffer more than what will probably happen.

Fox "News": Network of Traitors

You know, I'm getting sick to death of this sort of thing. You would think that after the murder of an abortion provider in his church, the murder of a security guard at the Holocaust Museum by a right-wing neo-Nazi, the right-wing terrorist with the capacity to build a dirty bomb... that the assholes at Fox "News" would stop dipping their toes in the waters of treason, at least for a few weeks.

Think again. Here's Glenn Beck with one of his favorite anti-American guests, Michael Scheuer, discussing the only thing that will save America from politicians they dislike:



Skip to about 6:30... they declare that "the only chance we have as a country" is for Osama bin Laden to "execute a major attack" in order to serve the political goals of Beck and Scheuer.

Democracy is anathema to these people, because when an election has an outcome they disagree with they want Americans to die in order to produce outcomes more preferable to them. They believe that dead Americans are better than living Americans who disagree with them. Glenn Beck... and by extension everyone who watches and enjoys his show, are the SPIRITUAL BROTHERS OF OSAMA BIN LADEN. They share the same goals: political power at the expense of human lives, by way of terrorism.

Bunch of fucking traitors... Glenn Beck should be ashamed, and fired. No one who loves America should watch Fox "News" or support any of their sponsors. This isn't about the opinions or differences in policy or focus that break normal Americans into political parties. This isn't about being partisan within a democratic system. This is about a group of people seeing a terrorist attack as a GOOD THING, if it makes people agree to implement policies that they cannot use reason or the political process to acheive.

The difference between what Fox "News" does and encourages, and what real Americans support and stand for, is this: you may disagree with me, I may disagree with you, we might get angry and call names, it may be impossible for us to ever be polite to each other let alone be friends. But, at the end of the day I don't want to see harm come to you, or anyone else, in order for me to be able to say "I told you so" or see my agenda pushed through, and I would hope you feel the same. Fox "News" has hosts and guests who believe that terrorist attacks are a good thing for America, if they make more people agree with their viewpoint.